Emotion.... Now & Then!!!!

 Last night was very emotional night.....couldn't sleep!! Got up early too!! The reason? Well I saw this beautiful & sad movie on a TV, and it hasn't left my head all day. It was all about in my mind could wrap....I found myself battling all day long the thoughts of the images in the film. It really made me sad!! It made me really cry!! If I look back or rewind my life's journey....Nothing or nobody could make me cry!! I was never a weepy person. (You don't count my big loud tantrum cries to get something...or to get out of something and that also in my very early young age!!)) I needed to clarify this as I know my sisters would have objected on my above statements...ha ha.

    Anyway... I still remember once A-Kothary & I watched a movie called "Saaransh". It's a story of an old couple whose son is killed in USA. The disturbing moments in the movie is when the father is mishandled with the custom officers to recover the ashes of his son. The film has full of touching moments... Anupam Kher's acting as the father is very compelling. The film's theme is the pain of losing your child is very powerful. The film shows a very dark side of the corruptions in police & other officials too... A-Kothary cried & cried, tears were piling on her cheeks..... And me...swallowing hard, chocked with emotions, a heavy chest, eyes moist but no tears rolling down from my eyes!! I was looking at her and I wanted to cry like her, I squeezed my eyes also but nope no tears!! I didn't cry but the film left a deep impression on my heart.

    Then life happened!! I had my boys. My physical of my anatomy changed!!  First I cried with joy!! Then the factors of life, the reality of life, the troubles, the turmoils, the situations and the circumstances changed!!  I started my crying at the anger...then for feeling sorry, for being helpless. And then only I found the long awaited tears on my cheeks!! I have come the long way.

     So where was I... ahh that movie, yeah last night I was watching, ‘The Boy in the Striped Pajamas". The film is about eight year’s old son of Nazi Commander at the concentration camp. Having no friends of his age he becomes friends with a Jewish boy on the other side of camp fence who was wearing striped pajamas. The Holocaust as seen through 8 years old Bruno as he doesn't know what’s happening at the camp nearby at the beginning. And slowly, he gets closer to discovering the truth, losing his childhood innocence in the process.
      Forbidden friendship between a Nazi boy & a Jew boy ends in a very tragic way... The last shot was very disturbing showing room with piles of camp uniform (striped Pajamas) on the floor. The end is very startling and unexpected. The film is emotionally very demanding which will make you think & feel the pain of war casualties. The Holocaust was of coarse one of the darkest event where the people were killed for their race, religion or political beliefs..... Truly saddest heart wrenching film...
     I feel lucky that we have not (Directly involving ourselves) become the part of any war. We are fortunate that we have not suffered the pain & loss of our own.
      At the end I found my tears on my cheeks...I was crying.... I sat through the titles ends, ads started but couldn't pick up the TV control to switch off the TV...
     Man...What a movie...what a performances by all actors!! I strongly recommend this to all who wants to enjoy all a-class movies. And I would love to know the reactions too from you.
   Where will this yearn,
   take me today:
   It’s time to begin
   my unfinished dreams
   in the oceans of the sands.

   love always billa driftwood.