The Gratitude...

 These past days were like cooking marathon....the people who knows me; they know me very well how I work!! It’s like this; I will cook or work for continuous straight for long hours...as I don't like to be in the kitchen for everyday. (Bless the soul for inventing the refrigerator...)) Same thing goes for house cleaning...like other good housewives I simply can't get up early in the morning & start my daily cleaning routine...I do that in the night or at some other time. Ahhh so I was telling about my busyness (my version of being busy so no spell-check) of cooking... like I told you the Gardner is here and my whole schedule has been changed. And now my lonely Fridge is having a feast of દાળભાત, ખીચડીકડી, લીલાશાક, સમોસા અને સ્પ્રીન્ગરોલ (savory)of three days of my hard work 

    So after that I went into a hibernation mode...lots of rest, lots of surfing channels & lots of time spending with me & me only. So in my solitude time I was wandering in the aisles of the past (what else you do?) few years which went by...especially last few days & years. Quite event full ones. So many chapters ended & so many new began... That was my life, kept walking despite of all obstacles and challenges. So many people some nice, some adorable, some obnoxious and some simply non significant walked with me & made my life so interesting. The life went so beautiful & adventurous with them. It’s like you start walking alone & people join you. हम तो चले थे अकेले को, काफिला बढता गया और राही मिलते गए. People who walked with me, stayed with me, are mine and one who quit perhaps were never mine. Still the journey was, is & will be very enjoyable, exciting with this rich experiences...

     I want to welcome coming years with open arms & want to feel good about a lot of things & a new face in my life. Hopes & promises are coming back to me & I am rejoicing those moments. No matter how small or big they may be, but they are mine & will always remain mine. Life has started breathing normally now. The mind is rejuvenating. The heart is singing. The body is now resting.

     To all those who touched my heart in some way or the other... kudos to you for bringing smile on face and restoring my faith in LOVE. Today is not thanks-giving day but I want to really thank each one who made difference in my life. Somewhere deep in my heart I always felt that the Sun always shines after a long and darker night. Thank You Very Much to You All.  અમે તો લહેરથી જીવ્યા, તમારી હૂંફમાં દોસ્તો, અમારે એક બાકી છે હવે તેહવાર ફૂલોનો.......

     To all those whom I have offended, hurt or made them feel what they are not...I am sorry. My intentions were not to do so... I must have acted upon the circumstances, misunderstandings or simply for my bad mood. I am really sorry. I would like to hand out my hand for fresh start, only if you want to. I know that it will take some time from both side, but we can try...गांठ अगर लग जाये तो फिर, रिश्ते हो या डोरी, लाख करे कोशिश खुलनेमे वक़्त तो लगता है.

     Now no regrets, no worries, lot of questions but now answered!! All is well if it ends well. The Malik always offers absolute happiness, only we needed to find it. Or may be its like you only appreciate brighter side after walking on the darker side. So finally I am bowing my head & heart humbly to my Malik and his blessings. Here I am expressing my Gratitude towards him. Thank you for your guidance  to recognize the brighter side of my life.बिन मांग गुरु किरात करावे, बिन यांचे दिए न्यामत आय. औगुन मेरे कुछ न बिचारे, दिन दिन मेहर करी अधिकाय.

      As they say, for everything you have missed, you have gained something else; everything you gain you loses something else. It’s about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice. And I have learned to rejoice.

 I talk life & experiences

make yourself so indispensable

no one can erase you.

A lot of people appear and disappear as par their convenience

but I feel... we must make a difference in someone's life.

Yes, slowly I am getting tired of maintaining one sided relations,

slowly I am fading out from a lot of people's life

But...trust me, its not easy to delete me

for one reason

I've made difference in your life...I've changed your thought process.

પરાયાના ચરણ ચાંપીને અનુસરવું નથી ગમતું,

તણખલાનો સહારો લઇ મને તરવું નથી ગમતું.

જીવન ઝીન્દાદીલીથી હું જીવી છું એટલું બસ છે,

ફકીરી    હાલમાં  છું   મસ્ત, કરગવું   નથી   ગમતું.

અચળ છું ધ્રુવસમ આકાશ જેવી મારી  દુનિયામાં,

નજીવા કો સિતારા સમ મને ખરવું નથી  ગમતું.

Malik Radhasoami Dayal Ki daya

love as always billa driftwood,