Ignorence Is Bliss!!

 Today was my friend Chand's kitty party....and I was there as a guest. I really enjoyed being with my friends. It is a totally different kind of fun, Housy, lot of games, good food....Mrs. Behanji's Punjabi Kadhi....so tasty. Chand is my first friend in G, dham. I still remember that hot evening when we met....August 1975. So long ago...and yet it seems like yesterday. Her two daughters are my boy's sisters. She is blessed with 3 grandsons. I am lucky to have her in my life.
   But today's topic is different!!!Some times Ignorance is bliss, that's what I want to feel. Somewhere we all reach a point when we don't what to know or wish we can afford to say I don't know. It’s so funny how these three words can at once invoke feelings of despair. Sometimes knowing becomes intolerable. If we seek all answers for all questions we become insane.
   Today I also tried getting answers for silly & stupid situations!! I feel so irritated with some relatives. I simply don't know how to handle them...Normally they or their any actions doesn't matter much in my life, but when they cross their line and bring unpleasant in my home then…
    Once the Gardner's (I have kept this name for my Husband, as many beautifully fragrant flowers has bloomed in his well nourished Garden) friend Jayeshbhai said, billa you don't have choice with family. But you can choose & discard friends!!! So True!! So many times I have wished not to have some relatives from my side or The Gardner's.
   But you shouldn't! You simply can't!! They are included in the package of your so called life designed by The God!!And you simply cannot fight or argue with The Supreme!! This is a sweet or salty revenge from him. This is his way of Balance...
   But still being human and with many faults within me I will try to find faults in others too. So I will get irritated by people who impose & interfere in my way of life. My Mom always said, “We have to wear different masks with different relations." and she did....but somehow I can’t. I simply cannot find any other face as a mask then this stubborn billa's face!!!
   I really wish I shouldn't have gone for searching answers for their actions as it brought inhuman nature in me....ready to fight against nature's structure, and become ugly. I wish sometimes I think or behave as The Gardner's point of views...calm, cool & nonagiteted.
  Because it brought again pain & stress. Distrust in Human Being!!!!

જીવનભર જળમાં સળગ્યો છું, ઘડીભર શ્વાસ લેવા દે
ઝીણી ઝાકળમાં સળગ્યો છું, ઘડીભર શ્વાસ લેવા દે
સદા શબ્દોના અગ્નિ-સ્તંભને મેં બાથ ભીડી છે
સતત કાગળમાં સળગ્યો છું ઘડીભર શ્વાસ લેવા દે....

       love always & ever but again thrown in the river as Driftwood!!